played.

I have become a situation. how wonderful.
knowingly hurting the hurt is plain insensitive, my friend.

but yet, due to my discredit, i stupidly fly towards the flame.
this time, it has tested my niceity and faith to the max.
and this has proven to be my downfall.

A male without backbone and pride is not a man.
Time to be accountable for my own life and emotions.

to those who try to manipulate and abuse the relationship and trust i have in them, i am through with you.
I pray you can prove me wrong, though i m not putting too much hope in it.

to those who are building up and maintaing the trust i have in them, know that i will be true to the relationship we established. Your faith will be returned ten-fold and my support be there for you always.

thank you

Js for the patience and rationality
Herms for the advice
Yx for the encoragement
Jne for the "slap"

i will not let myself and you guys down.

leaf me not.

Leaf Me Not. by shannon.

a prince falls in a summer day,
abrupt and hasty and without grace.

plucked by the billowing western winds
dethroned and exiled and betrayed.

spiralling he falls to the ground,
where he rests without a sound.

the fallen prince wizen through disgrace,
from green to yellow than to brown.

the merciful heaven decries the loss,
but shine the sun high and aloft.

silent he be, muted be not,
the determined king shall take the sword.

the ground breaks when he moves,
a burgeoning kingdom he ensues.

skywards his kingdom grows,
Children and subjects be in troves.

a love for all in his sanctuary.
leaf me not. leaf me not.

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ps. i believe happiness comes to those who seek it. Dwelling in the past will only inhibit your growth. i have learnt my lesson. Its times like these i am at my "weariest". It's a painful process but for all its worth, it helps you to know yourself better.

Time alone cannot healed all wounds. Only love and faith will see us through. Take heart in knowing that we are not alone, as countless others have taken the same route. Be strong, be brave and face the world, pleasant surprises may be installed. This is what i believe to be.

Make new memories for what our life is worth, else life stops and what then what will be its worth?

"love or die" a strong stance, but, hey, what else is there if you do not move on?

an intrigured shannon

usage of pronouns [gender confusion]

what do u call a person of whose gender u are unsure of ?

if its not a she, a he, or it.
then the person can be called by a more
encompassing pronoun, "sh-e-it"
pronounced with a silent "e"

turning point

lost love lessons by shannon

a broken bond, a lost connection
the heart cowers in trepidation
quicken that recovery that drags too long
where memories fade, and feelings gone

a blessed experience, a brief euphoria
the mind concedes in aporia
forsaken that pain that dwells so deep
where happiness linger, and confusion meets

a mindful pathos, a equivocal nadir
the soul reveres in enlightenment
brighten that light that shines so clear
where hopes burgeon, and life reassured

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postscript:
i am at where i want to be. at peace with myself.
i have lost love but i have gained life
now that i am liberated to live, I can now fully appreicate and embrace life and love

conservation topic # 3 :: Six Degrees of Separation

SIX DEGREES OF SEPARATION

Six degrees of separation is the theory that anyone on the planet can be connected to any other person on the planet through a chain of acquaintances that has no more than five intermediaries.

The term "six degrees of separation" is often distorted to indicate that six generations is the maximum extent to which everyone in the world is related. This has been disproved in numerous genealogy circles, since six generations translates roughly to 250 years. It has been calculated, more accurately, that the maximum relationship a person living in the modern age can be to someone else, anywhere in the world, is 30-32 generations removed which is roughly 1200 years of ancestry.

society and i

We live in a myraid web of relations, 6 degrees apart to be more precise, where anyone knows everyone. where anyone is everyone. In a pardoxical society such as ours, individuality is promoted but conformity is to strive for.

Precisely because of this, decisions are seldom personal and independent. Every person's actions or inactions has its far-reaching consequences that are often unexpected and potentially detrimental. Society's unforgiving scrutiny has often rendered personality to some kind of freakish and unacceptable deviant behaviour.

If, for every consequence and its consquences, the accountability lies on the intial decision maker, will we be able to act and live for ourselves? If, for every stare or disapporving nod we recieve, will we be able to stand tall and stick to our guns?

Do we then fear to act and thus fear to live?

Imagine the paralysis seting in. Being part of the horde.
No indentity, no distinction, no life.
potential. unrealised.
life. wasted



So who exactly are we, and where is I? Am i who i am?

shannon version 2.0

coming soon.
watch this space